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Sunday, November 22nd, 2009

Got back from the South, I had to get something for Simone to give her mummy, and of course, she wanted money to buy cake for mummy then she wanted a card and gifts, so in the usual Simone way, she says “give me some change”. Thinking of this special day “we” had to find something that spoke from the heart. For the first time in six weeks I was feeling good about anything, yes I was real happy as I walked with Simone and looking for something special for the special woman who has been my life. What would it be, what should it say, were the questions that were in my mind.

Then after selecting what I thought was appropriate both in fragrance and how clear it spoke, I went to get what I know is always appreciated….some PJ’s. Suddenly as Simone and I went to the car and sat there looking at the items purchased, everything started coming to my mind, every possible question including, how will it come across, will it be thrown away, will this eb treated as a joke, will, will, will, will?

Or maybe, will it bring back a tingle that would be cause for a pause, will it make her realize that there is nothing she can do to make me stop loving her, or, will she now know that in spite of my short comings and all that has happened lately, that I will always be hers and that I have given myself to her a long time ago? I wonder, I wonder if she “feel me”. Hopefully, so I have to believe, trust God and let Him talk to her for me.

I can’t communicate, I can’t tell someone to communicate for me, but I hope there are some who will encourage and motivate her to do the right thing and come home. The best thing about all this is that I can ask ONE PERSON to talk to her and ask that PERSON to tell her how I feel and that PERSON will never testify against me.

If God is for me, who can be against me?

So I go to Him, and as if He does not already know how I feel or know what is happening, I start telling Him how much I love my baby, I ask Him to tell her that I love her, I ask Him to soften her heart and put the love she has for me right back on top, and I ask Him to bring her home now. That was a good feeling, a secure feeling, a feeling that I can trust and will not be betrayed. A feeling confirmed when I read that as I pray and believe, I will receive.
Matt 21:22 And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.

So, Happy Birthday Baby and may God keep you and protect you always.

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You have it in you, imagine you can talk

Friday, November 20th, 2009

Well, today was a great day. Imagine that after over 30 years, I saw something that I have never seen before. I actually saw a strong woman defending point after point. What took you so long?

What was also amazing is that I could see a lot myself evident in the presentation. Seems like I have been understudied and seems like the job was better than I could have done. To tell the truth, in a crazy way, I was so proud in spite of the fact that the fight was against me.

I know that you might think that you did not get all you came for but believe me, you were a winner today. You should feel proud of yourself, proud of the way you handled yourself, and you were just beautiful.

What today told me is that you “have it in you” and I hope that we will get the opportunity to benefit from this quality that was so missing ever since we have been together. The good news is that there is hope, well, I hope there is.
Look deep inside and you to find even one tiny bit of emotion that can jumpstart our train so that we will take a new ride of love and happiness.

Let’s talk Baby, I would love to get to know the person I saw today.

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